Monday,
February 6, 2012
ELLIE DAY!
What I have
said, that will I bring about; what I have planned, that
will I do. ~Isaiah 46:11
"'Mommy' She said it and I knew. She was mine. I was
captivated. Because Mommy is forever.
It's such a powerful name. Mommy means 'I trust you.'
Mommy means 'You will protect me.' Mommy is for shouting
when you need someone dependable and for laughing with
when you are excited; Mommy is for crying on and cuddling
with when you are sad, or giggling and hiding behind when
you are embarrassed. Mommy is the fixer of boo- boos and
the mender of broken hearts. Mommy is a comfort place, a
safe place. Mommy means you are mine and I am yours and we
are family." (Kisses from Katie pg. 57)
She is PERFECT. She is BEAUTIFUL. She is wanted and she is
claimed. She is loved, cherished and adored.
It was not an easy gotcha moment, nor a day filled with
happiness, giggles and smiles. But it has been a VERY good
day!
We walked into the Civil Affairs room this morning a
little after 10:30. And there she was, holding her nanny's
hand. She looked so little. So scared. But so brave. I
knelt down to say hello, and I could feel and see her
backing away. Bill was trying to get the camera out and
also hand the TA and passports to the nannies so we could
pick our baby girl up. It was all rather hectic, since we
hadn't anticipated that she'd be there. Once that was all
accomplished, I scooped up my baby girl, and the screaming
began. And the back arching. And the thrashing. That along
with her slippery silk outfit outfit, did not make her an
easy girl to hold. But I can say this. At the very site of
her and even throughout the wailing and thrashing, I fell
in love with this baby girl as I have never done before.
She felt perfect in my arms since the moment I first held
her.
You know, it's so awkward in those gotcha rooms. We were a
little late, and eveyone had their children by the time we
walked in. The children were all quiet. Except for Ellie.
So we've got the thrashing child with everyone looking on.
Not a thing I could do to comfort this baby girl, whose
world has just turned upside down. She pushed everything
away that I tried to bribe her with. I put her down for a
second, and she ran to her nanny's arms. And the nanny had
her comforted in no time at all. Honestly, I was glad when
we finally left.
As soon as we left the room, Ellie began to settle down,
and when we got into the van, she completely shut down.
And fell asleep in my arms. We then headed to Wal-Mart to
pick up some diapers, formula and other supplies, and I
wore her in the Egro during that time. She didn't fight
it, but was just shut down and downright sad. She reminds
me totally of Kate when we got her.
We got back to the room and have been there for the rest
of the day. Ellie has not let out a peep all day (once the
crying stopped) and has opened up very slightly. She still
looks very scared. And does not like her postion changed.
If I put her on her feet she won't walk at all. She fell
asleep for a short while in my arms today and I loved
every minute of it. She is a precious treasure. Her
nannies said that she's introverted, and that is just fine
with me. She is content to stay in one spot and holds and
studies each toy intently. She is an observer.
SO here is the GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!! She's a mama's girl. She
cries when Bill tries to hold her. And yes, I am loving
every minute of it. She wants nothing to do with our
guide, Amy either. Which is good. She basically has just
wanted to sit in my lap AND BE CUDDLED all. day. long. And
I have loved every minute of it. We've had some nice eye
contact, though sadly most of the day her little head has
been hanging with her eyes downcast. She's relaxed in my
arms and reclined back and allowed me to feed her a
bottle. She's timid and scared, but she's definitely
allowing me take care of her. I've even had her little
head resting on my shoulder already. This took weeks for
AC and Kate to do. So, all in all I would call it a very
good day!
Ellie loves those little tangerines, and has eaten
probably 3 today. And her nannies sent some steamed eggs
for her, and she LOVES those. She has a darling little
haircut, and her hair smells so sweet and GOOD. I think
she was freshly bathed before they brought her. Her skin
is in perfect condition and she's chubby with the most
squooshable little thighs and kissable little cheeks EVER!
She is perfect. She is ours. And God is SO very good. |
Meeting mama for the first time
Gotcha!
Mama's in love
Daddy's turn!
So sad
With the nannies
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