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Saturday,
August 14, 2010
THE MOMENT OF TRUTH
Today we would finally find out some information on Harper's
heart condition, or at least I hoped we would. There was a small
chance that Harper's Atrial Septal Defect, ASD, would close on
its own. It was moderate size when we accepted her file so it
could get smaller or larger. The Dr.'s would not be doing any
diagnostic testing, such as an echo or an ultrasound, but at
least we would be able to witness them listening to her little
heart. We also would have to endure the dreaded vaccines that
are required by the US government. China adoptions are now under
the Hague convention which provides a framework for China and
other Hague countries to work together to ensure that adoptions
are in the best interest of the child. Also, it helps prevent
abductions and trafficking of children. The object is to provide
a safe and permanent home for children. There are many more
bridges you have to cross to adopt from a Hague country and at
times the paperwork, appointments, training and other logistics
seem endless. Todd and I had to watch DVD's, attend adoption
seminars and literally took tests to better understand parenting
and discipline techniques, caring for a child from birth to
adulthood and the bonding process. Personally, I think this
should be required for all new parents!
The Hague process came into effect the past year and a half and
although it does a wonderful job in safeguarding the children it
does lengthen the adoption process quite a bit. Years ago after
you received your referral you traveled 4-6 weeks later. Now you
travel anywhere from 4-9 months afterwards! By the time we were
three months out from traveling to Harper I remember thinking
how sad it was that she was taking her first steps without us
because we were waiting on the US government's new rules. The
paperwork and various approvals all seemed to be redundant. I
didn't see how any of this was in the best interest of the
child. The other negative, and most controversial topic about
Hague adoptions and being an I-800 family, is the vaccines!
There is a list of vaccinations that are required for all
immigrants upon entering the states. The backlash from this new
rule is in full effect and there is actually a bill in front of
congress right now to get it revised. Apparently thanks to all
the hard work and protests from adoptive parents the bill should
get passed in November of this year. We are praying it does! I
heard all these awful stories before I traveled about kids
getting so sick from the shots. One child had to get eleven
shots in one day! I didn't realize how much the vaccines would
bother me until I was there seeing all these children,
especially the ones with severe medical needs getting pumped
with shot after shot! It was almost inhumane and made our
stomachs turn! Another child we witnessed, that was newly
adopted, would need a heart transplant when she hit the sates,
and she still had to get four shots that day. These shots also
come at a time where the newly adopted children are just
starting to trust their parents. Talk about throwing a wrench
into the whole bonding process. I would soon see the affect the
shots would have on my relationship with Harper. In the past the
I-600 families did not need to get the vaccinations and if you
are currently an I-600 family, you can get a waiver on the
shots. I have heard of a few instances where I-800 families got
a waiver but that is pretty much a miracle if you do!
At least the walk to her medical appointment was tranquil.
Guangzhou has a sub-tropical climate and the surroundings with
the oversized weeping trees were so abundant and old! Our shirts
were sticking to our back like velcro and this was cooler than
last week in Nanchang! It was a typical Saturday morning in a
park: teens playing hacky sack in groups, the elders practicing
Tai Chi, little kids playing Chinese checkers, and then Asian
kids running around being chased by their new Caucasian parents.
Okay so not a typical park scene in America! As I mentioned
before every person adopting has to come to Guangzhou to
finalize their adoption. It doesn't matter what age the adoptive
parents are or the age of the children they are adopting -- this
is a grueling trip! The environment here was different than
Nanchang though. It was very westernized and there were tons of
Americans! We definitely did not stick out like a sore thumb
anymore! Instead of people taking pictures of us we were taking
pictures of them from the everyday people on the street to the
brides in their beautiful gowns to the runway models posing
against the stone walls! Guangzhou is very metropolitan but this
area near the Pearl River feels like Savannah, GA. The buildings
had beauty and grace combined with a southern twist! The
walkways and street markings were deep stone paths that just
wrapped around the stores and green ways. It was lovely and we
felt a sense of relief like we were on US soil again. However,
we would quickly remember that we were not in our country just
yet!
Before our medical appointment we had to get Harper's visa
picture taken. We went down a side alley following the Queen of
Guangzhou...oops I meant our guide! We asked her some questions;
some she answered and others she disregarded! We went into this
tiny building which just housed a wooden chair and man with his
camera. We were instructed to take off Harper's green headband
which she was more than delighted to get rid of! We then had to
slick her hair back behind her ears and plop her in the seat
before she cried. Luckily, they got a picture they could use on
the first try. Poor Harper thought that would just be her only
torturous event for the day... little did she know what was in
store!
We only had to walk a half of block and then I saw the sign
"Medical". We walked in at 10:30AM and the place was mobbed with
kids of all ages and their worried parents. There was one couple
who adopted a boy that was about 13 and he was in a wheelchair.
We kept seeing them at our hotel as well and I just thought in
my mind, God bless them! If it wasn't for his parents he would
be an outcast in China with no hope for a job, a future or an
existence. It makes your heart smile when you see the older kids
getting adopted and how happy these kids are to have parents.
The kids are more than happy to be going to America! My heart
began to pound as we were ushered around to the front desk and
me and the other adoptive mom, Robin, had tears and fear in our
eyes. We just wanted to know the number of shots our child would
receive. It was such a big mystery! Let me state for the record
here I am not anti-vaccines. I just personally like to know what
the ingredients are in each shot and would limit the high risk
shots into different appointments. Yes, I have been known to
call my Dr. and make them order me certain brands (so I might be
more extreme than others!) Anyways, here my knowledge and
opinions would not matter. I would have no say, but at least I
could try to fight for my daughter. I have a really hard time
conceptualizing how this is even allowed as you can deny the
same shots in America for your child, but you are forced to
receive them here. Most of us have no clue how severe the
medical needs of our children are until we get home. Their
medical records are typically wrong or missing information and
to subject these little bodies to all these shots well, I find
just plain wrong!
I had my hopes set that Harper would not need any more than
three shots. Our guide realized how concerned we were and
brought us to the vaccination payment area. You pay for your
shots here before you even see the list! She was quite surprised
that we wanted to see the list beforehand. I was thinking in my
head, don't most parents?! There was the list in black and white
print. I counted as fast as I could. The number-six! Six shots
for an 18 month old that was already vaccinated with half of
these shots already! I was overwhelmed and began to cry. I tried
to explain that some of the shots she already had been given but
the Chines government also have different vaccination schedules
then the US so it was translated back to me that we had to
follow both countries rules. Now is this all done for political
reasons? Some say yes and others disagree and say that the kids
need to be vaccinated just as other children are in the states.
Yes all children need their shots but back in the states it
would be on our terms, our schedule and our vaccines- not
Chinese versions of the shots. I don't know the real reason for
all of this. All I knew is that this very happy child would soon
be zonked out and overheated from what was about to take place.
I heard the shrieking coming from the vaccine room and our guide
moved us to the other long lines where we waited for the hearing
test, weight and height check and quick physical exam. I was
petty disgusted by the lack of safety procedures and
cleanliness. The used the same tongue depressors and ear covers
for several of the children. What could I do though? I just told
myself to go with it and after you were done seeing one Dr. you
moved to the next room. It was a very odd system. There was no
regard to how stressful this was on the parents or children. We
all just crowded in and you would hear screams and chaos in
every corner. The only light and happiness in today's story was
meeting other adoptive parents that I had talked with on my
adoption chat rooms the past several years. I cannot even
explain the support and love on these boards. I was addicted to
them 24/7 this past year gaining advice and learning everything
possible bit of information about heart conditions, travel
arrangements, adoption agencies, etc. These very special people
kept me sane throughout this whole process. I am seriously a
walking encyclopedia on China adoptions procedures, tips and
knowledge due to them! The first couple we came across asked our
names and then said, "Wait...are you Flowermom?" I said, "Yes I
am." We shared smiles and stories of our first days with our
children and then we turned a corner and we meet someone else
that was on Rumor Queen Adoption board. It was so funny to keep
seeing people I had never met but felt like I knew them to their
core. We had talked on message boards about our imitate details
and feelings at the various adoption stages it was surreal to
meet them now when we all felt so vulnerable. Harper screamed
through every exam. The Dr.'s made me hold her tight as they
poked and prodded their way around her belly, ears and head.
After each station we gave her some of her favorite little
Gerber puffs to munch on. You could just feel the negative
energy in this place and most kids were not taking much food or
drink from their parents.
We entered the examination room where they would check her
heart...finally! The nurse listened to her heart then left the
room. I heard this would happen. None of the staff spoke English
so it was quite hard to figure out what they were thinking and
writing down. She came back in the room this time accompanied by
a doctor. I gave Todd my very nervous look and he stared back at
me. The nurse gave the doctor the stethoscope and she motioned
her hand up and down on her chest almost trying to say loud and
thud, thud! So that was our moment of truth! We knew she still
had a heart problem. He went back to the guide and she said,
"The doctor wants to know if she has a VSD?" We said, "No we
were told ASD". I was thinking to myself well maybe she has
both. I thought he might elaborate. Instead he said, "She has a
strong heart and can get the shots!" I begged for a waiver but
he said no and walked out of the room. Todd and I were so upset
that our guide asked to speak to the head doctor. We would at
least try to convince him and we hoped it would work. We went
back to the waiting room and as we inched closer and closer to
the vaccination room the screams got louder and louder. There
was just a curtain separating us now. It was heart wrenching and
I have stomach pains writing about it. It was horrible to see
these kids going in and coming out a complete mess! The guide
came back to us and said the head doctor will meet with you to
hear your case. Whew! I kept praying to God that by some chance
he could intercede and spare this child form these shots today.
So we did our best...we begged, cried, pleaded with him. We told
him all of her symptoms and promised him that as soon as we
bring her back to the states we will get her vaccinated. He
empathized with us. It was the first sign of sympathy I felt
since we entered China! He was a good man but in the end after
twenty minutes of us crying to him our waiver was denied. He
said this was a United States rule and out of his hands. My
heart sank I was never so saddened to be an American. As I said
this is very controversial topic and I would give nothing less
than my honesty in these stories. To have these rules placed
upon every child with no consideration on the individual was
just ridiculous! I would love to know how one of the senators
would feel if this was their child! It wasn't China I was
dealing with anymore - it was America. He told us how China does
not want to vaccinate the children more than they have to and
how they don't do more than a few shots in one day even in the
orphanages. He said we could split up the shots but that the US
would deny us entry if she still had a fever in two days when
our Consulate Appointment was scheduled. We could be delayed in
China for weeks. So now it was up to us. Do we do it all at once
or wait and take the chance. Since our consulate appointment was
Monday, she would not have any time to recover from a fever
before the appointment, so we were pretty much forced to get
them all today. |
View from our
room at the White Swan Hotel
A man fishing on his boat
Being led through the parks by the Queen of Guangzhou
The park we walked through had sculptures of children and adults
playing. It was so quaint!
The Visa picture appointment
Harper staring at the nurse's stethoscope wondering what was
going to happen next!
Even though Harper had her favorite pen in her hand she was
still not happy getting her weight checked!
Gripping on to daddy and wishing she was
done with her medical
exam!
One of the many beautiful brides we saw!
Our barbie doll compliments of the White Swan!
Harper running around before her nap
She was fading quickly!
I think she had enough for one day as
well!
Harper taking off her band aids
My new buddies outside my window!
Harper mimicking me as I say, "Come here and let me check your
temperature"! |
Todd and I agreed
that we had no choice but to get all of them today. Before I
left for China I heard that one heart baby went into a seizure
right after they received their first shot so I was more
paranoid probably then some other parents there. The doctor told
us to feed her some more food and then get in line so we did as
we were told!
I looked over and saw that the other family had received their
shots and their little girl looked happy so that gave me a sign
of hope. As we fed her I kept looking at the curtain pulled
across the room and listened to the screams coming from behind
it. It was so sad. I felt like I was stuck in a horror flick. I
was engrossed in feeding Harper when a very nice lady appeared
from behind the curtain and then asked us Harper's name. I said
"This is Harper Lily" and she said, "Oh my I know her"! She was
following my blog and was another one of my cyberspace friends!
This was her second adoption and that was her daughter screaming
in the background. She said she held down their first daughter
and she told her husband this time he had to do it! After taking
part in this I can see why parents rotate! It was so nice to
have familiar people around and it was like we were all fighting
this battle together.
Well, apparently we made all the doctors nervous so they all
stood behind the nurses as the shots were administered to
Harper. Our guide told us we were special and that the doctors
are never there. I didn't really feel that special! Everything
was happening so fast and I made sure they used brand new
sterile needles and I counted all the boxes. I was teary eyed
and they told me to hold her down tight and let me say it was
not in the easiest position. Her head was looking up at me and
she was already screaming. Here we go...one in the upper arm,
two in the lower left leg, two in the lower right leg and one in
the upper right arm. I won't go into detail but it was the worst
thing I ever sat through in my life. They were not gentle. We
were told we had to wait 30 minutes and then we could leave. I
pulled the curtain and ran out of the room. I sat on the bench
crying my eyes out with Harper. My new friends and support team
crowded around us and helped calm me down. I know every new
parent goes through this - witnessing their child getting shots
and being in pain for the first time. However, this was
different, this was not only our first round of vaccines with a
baby but we were also feeling helpless in a foreign country.
There are no feelings to describe how I felt. I was done. I was
done with China. I was done with the politics. I was done with
Harper screaming. I was done for the day. I was done not having
any control. I was done!
Harper had no immediate reaction to the shot but I had a feeling
it was coming! She was sweating so bad when we left there (a
typical symptom of ASD) and now we had to walk 15 minutes back
to our hotel with our guide. The doctors said to give her a lot
of food and liquids. Great...thanks for the tip! As we walked
Harper did something she had never done before. She hit my face!
She was evidently mad that I put her through that ordeal! She
did allow me to carry her but I could not look right at her, if
I did she would swat at me and yell something in Chinese baby
talk! This was not the time to discipline so I just said I was
sorry and looked the other way for the rest of the walk. When I
put her down in the room she ran off. I found a blond Barbie
doll staring up at me on our desk. This was not just any Barbie
doll. This was a Barbie doll made especially for adoptive
parents. In the Barbie doll's arms was an Asian baby! I chuckled
at hospitality gift from our hotel! Harper loved the doll and
then she went into crazy mode running around back and forth from
the bed to the sofa and back. She was wound up and soon she
would crash hard into a sound sleep.
While Harper was sleeping I ordered Todd and I some eggs. I had
heard that when you are desperate for food eat order a fried
egg! I repeatedly told the room service attendant that I wanted
my eggs cooked fully and I also wanted rice. They said, "Okay,
cooked fully". They then asked again,”Sunny side up? Once again
I said, "No cooked fully." "No problem" was their response. I
was so worn out and just wanted a good meal. I was sick of the
ramen noodles and packets of oatmeal I brought. I was hoping
they got this right! When the room service attendant started to
set up our table I saw two wine glasses. I asked what they were
for and he said, "The rice wine". I said, "No, we wanted rice".
He said, "No problem". Sure, is what I was thinking. All I
wanted was my darn rice. I was so hungry and I have been so
limited in what I can consume in order to not get Montezuma's
revenge! Well at least I have my eggs! He took off the lid and
there were my eggs... sunny side up! I had absolutely no
strength left to try to explain the style of eggs I wanted so I
just plopped myself on the couch with my bottled water and the
bread! Just when I thought my day could not get any worse I
decided to get changed and lay down with Harper while she was
still asleep. I went into the living room...(mind you we are
staying on the 27th floor) and looked out. I thought I had lost
my mind for good when I saw two Asian men outside my window. I
yelled to Todd and his reply was, "Oh they must be cleaning the
windows". I said, "Oh great, of course!" Then I heard a very
loud drill and hammer sounds. This was just wonderful!
Apparently, they were adding some sort of cell phone tower and
this was the week they would be doing the 27th floor along the
riverside. After I was dressed I went to the window and made
hand motions that I was rocking a baby and then slapped my hands
on my head to insinuated sleep. They looked at us smiled and
continued to pound our wall. I was completely done once again
and burst into tears only to wake up little miss Harper who now
had a fever and welts from her shots. It looks like this was
shaping up to be our least favorite day in China! |
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