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April 9, 2006

Hey Butter Cup!

It is a bright and sunny Sunday morning…about 9:30 am…your daddy is fast asleep and I am taking the time to write to you and catch you up on what is going on…

We have been busy around here…we are settling into our work and getting organized…AND…we are getting the last of our paperwork together to send to CHINA!!!!! Yes…we have finally finished the paper chase! We have to take some pictures of us around the house and that is it…which we are going to do today…then I overnight our paperwork to Nashville…our agency…then they will get all the approvals and seals and such and mail it off to China! Sianna…we are finally getting somewhere…and that means…we are getting closer to you! It looks like a April/May Log In Date…and from what I hear it is about 9 to 10 months from that…so that would mean….December or January…and I think that is only for your picture….and then we travel after that…so I am thinking March of next year I am China bound! I sure hope it is sooner rather than later though.

This also means that I am going to go and pick out your light house…because your dad and I wanted to have one lit in your room to represent your life…and keep it lit until we safely brought you home. Also your grandparents are visiting your Uncle Will and Aunt Debbie for Easter and they are bringing back your crib….YES we will have your crib next week….and I am going to start your room!!! So things are moving much better now….we are so excited and just can’t wait to get things ready here.

Love you always always always,

~Mommy

April 14, 2006

Sianna,

Good morning sunshine!! It is 8:30 am on Friday morning…I was lucky enough to have a late morning in…so I am giving another update…more good news!

Your daddy and I mailed out your paperwork Wednesday to our agency. They should have received it yesterday at noon!!! They will perpare it for its departure to China…then guess what….there will be a piece of your father and I….with you in China! There is at least a little part of us that will be sitting in an office on CHINESE SOIL!!!

This has been such a test of patience for me…you pretty much have to be in this process. Getting to this point is such a huge step…because now every day that passes….is literally a day we are closer to you…and becoming a family.

As I said earlier…your grandparents are picking up your crib this weekend…and your grandmother Mildred is also coming down to visit…today! It is all coming together! I am going to shop for your light house Saturday after work…so I will have that ready for when we are officially DTC!!!!

On a much more serious note….

Sweet Sianna, the thought that you may already be born at this point is an amazing thing!! And I will not know about the circumstances that will place you in the hands of a nanny…but every day now…I realize it could be any day….and I am saddened that you may be an unhappy baby at this point if it has already happened. You don’t have any clue who I am and that I am a million miles away…aching in my heart too for you!!!! But we are going to go through this together in our spirits…if not physically. But one day you will read this and realize that I have loved you and wanted you before you were ever conceived!!!! You were always a wanted child…and you will always have my love until the end of all time! I am praying every day that God will take you in is heart and warm your spirit and give you some sense of comfort that we are on our way! I pray for your protection, health and happiness. You are our little angel!!!

I love, love, love, love, love you!!!!!

~Mommy

April 29, 2006

Dear Sianna,

It is Saturday morning about 9:45…the sun is out and the sky is a bright bright blue! Your daddy just left to go fishing…BIG SURPRISE!!!! <grin>

So here I am at the house with some much needed “quiet time”. I am listening to Josh Gorban…he is my sanity!!!!!! His music is the most beautiful I have heard in a long time…and many of the songs bring me closer to you! I usually listen to him on my way to and from work…my “Sianna time”.

Last night your Granddaddy Patton and Grandma Patton took us to a George Jones concert in Bristol. Your Aunts Ida and Jo Anne came with us too! We had a great time…your Granddaddy is a HUGE George Jones fan…and it was great to see him enjoy the music LIVE. I can NOT wait for you to meet your Aunt Jo Ann and Ida…they have been so important in my life growing up as a child and now as an adult…they have more love inside them for all of us kids than any other I have seen!!!! And YOU will get to feel that love and I can not wait! They are going to just fall to pieces when they finally get to hold you in their arms!!! Everyone is just ready to GET YOU HERE!!!!!!!

Gosh I have so much to catch you up on…We sent the paperwork to the agency and Daddy called… and last we checked it was in WASHINGTON DC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It will make a brief trip back to Nashville then quickly sent off to China…where a part of us will sit in an office somewhere in CHINA….and wait for you…our precious little child!

I feel fairly confident that we will be logged in the first week of May…but if not then…sometime in May. The bad news…our agency emailed us and said there are “rumors” that the process may slow down to 14-18 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have still not processed this yet. I can’t even imagine having to wait that long to get you….I feel like jumping on a plane right now and just going to China!!!! But obviously I can’t do that… Right now families that are receiving pictures of their child have been waiting for 11 months….so we will just have to take this day by day. If we were to wait that long….that means you may not in fact be born yet....however…your spirit was born in side me May 2005….and there you have been growing inside me ever since….the way I look at it…..most mothers only get to experience the connection with their child “physcially” for 9 months….I have gotten the privilege of experiencing your spirit with me for over a year and it will be longer than that by the time I get to actually hold you. So I know our bond is like no other!!!!!

Well as I promised…once we sent your paperwork to China we were going to light a Light House in your room to symbolize your life. Well it has been lit and it is beautiful!!!!! I cried my eyes out when we lit it…I am an emotional nut!!!! We have taken pictures and will post them on the site as soon as possible.

We have begun on your room….your Grandma Patton has picked out some beautiful patterns for your bedding and curtains…she brought them to me last night and I think she coming over Sunday and we are going to try and put things together. Your room is coming together kind of on its own….we are just thinking of you and feeling what you would like to have…and things are just falling in place. Your crib is completely the most beautiful piece of furniture I have ever seen. I must walk in to your 50 times a day!!!!!!! It is so amazing to know that one day I will walk in…and there you will be!!!

My work is good….thank God above for those clients!!!!!! At my work I help people reach their weight loss goals. That may seem like an easy job…but it is not…I hope it is something that you will not need to battle. I have battled my weight my entire life and still do…

These clients have become such an important part of my life right now. I am finally in a position where I get the privilege of helping them myself…and amazing things are happening!!!!!! At a time when I feel I have no control over most of my life….I go into work…and it may just be one client…but we will connect and this little light comes in their eyes….and I realized I have made a difference!!!!!! It is so rewarding and keeping me focused. Just like I tell them… “life is a process”…we must take each day one at a time and enjoy the journey and all it has to offer. I know it sounds good…but it can be hard to do. We just need to keep reminding ourselves…as long as we keep moving forward…we will reach our destination.

Well sweet little angel…I will be thinking of you every day and feeling you in my heart always. I love you to the moon and back!!!!!

~Mommy

PS...just wanted to say I love you again…<grin>

April 29, 2006

To the people who have posted on the guest book,

I read the guest book entries daily…and so many of you I have never met or know…and you have given us and Sianna such kind words of encouragement. Many of you have not left a way for us to contact you to thank you for your support and kind sentitments so I wanted to extend our gratitude through her letters.

You may feel that you are just leaving a small note…but we have a LONG wait…and anything from anyone is making each day pass with more ease. I often go back and read everyone’s posts just to remind myself…we are not alone in this process. Sianna has an entire cheering section that is extending beyond the boarders of our state of Tennessee and it is a beautiful thing.

Thank you so much for following along with us during this journey…your thoughts and support are being caried with us the entire way!!! Thank you for making our days while we wait…a little easier and we appreciate your kind words of support.

We will continue to update you through Sianna’s letters two times a month…

~Linda